I have a lot to say but nothing to say. I'm to tired of saying what i feel about anything right now and i just want to go home because of my serious homesickness. I'm just very tired from being away from home and i know realize that i'm not yet ready to move out of the country which i've concidered before after school. well well i haven't really tried yet. i guess i would need my own place to be able to feel how it would be living out of Sweden. well well...
Home soon and that's a good thing
Sunday 3 August 2008
Thursday 31 July 2008
The comment
Off course you could see the whole thing in different ways right?
More people would think one thing and the rest another...
One way of seeing it is that you go there very excited really looking forward about going there because someone somewhere has told you about the place in a very good way. This person tells you that the whole experience was so amazingly beautiful so that everybody should go there and try the healing surgery. You get there brainwashed by this person giving you huge expectations about something that seems so little but also so fantastic that you really start believing in it.
Another way can be that you're just curious about what will happen when you go there. How the whole thing will look and what the healing medium will do to you. You might not be very excited and believing about it but you feel that something like that is worth experiencing.
And then you can be the one who are not spiritual at all just going also because of the curiosity about what they will do and what will happen even though you don't think anything is going to change after.
You get there and however your feeling is the curiosity drives you in to this experience.
If you are very excited and then get the book to sign your name and your problem, you really consider what you want to be cured inside your body. If you feel a pain or something that is instable in your body you write it. If you're very serious about this you consider your answer and don't do any mistakes. Then you only write one place in your body where you feel there has to be a change. If you can't find anywhere in your body with an illness you go deep and think about the past and then write down one organ or part of your body where you want to feel a difference.
You believe it and get the surgery and after the treatment you feel better. Why?
Not because of the surgery, but because of that you believed in the process.
This is what i think. You become what you believe. If you believe in a change that you are going to feel better... You will.
People feel different every day. One day you can have a bad headache and one day you can feel healthy as a celery plant. Every day is different depending on how your mood is. Maybe if it's raining you can feel very bad and you find places in your body that hurts, or it can be a beautiful weather and you will feel fantastic.
Off course if you really do have an injury in your body or a bad lever you can't change it in a day, but if you believe that you're going to be better you will if you live right and don't push your self down in to the ground when you feel bad.
I've heard of people having a very weak heart going to faith healers and then gotten rid of their heart disease after a year. After this just living on as any human beings with no problems at all. Things like that sounds unreel and a little bit weird, but if it happened it happened. I still don't believe that it was about the surgery. Maybe a small part has to do with it like the medium gave you some advices like: Don't eat cholesterol, Don't use tampons, listen to others more, don't swim when you feel uncomfortable or lower your voice.
These tips she gave us. The thing about cholesterol anyone could say. Even my mother. What you can take it as is that you might should worry about your diet and care about what you're eating. That's a good and simple advice. Just like Jesus with his clever and simple advices helped people and still does 2000 years later. Respect for that.
Don't use tampons. Same thing. A very simple and clever advice if it were from your mother when you're 13.
All of these advices: Very good advices to use further on in life. think about what you're eating, doing and saying.
Anyway. I think it was very interesting, but not good at all because the days after i just felt bad and my stomach hurt so that's that.
Talk to you soon.
More people would think one thing and the rest another...
One way of seeing it is that you go there very excited really looking forward about going there because someone somewhere has told you about the place in a very good way. This person tells you that the whole experience was so amazingly beautiful so that everybody should go there and try the healing surgery. You get there brainwashed by this person giving you huge expectations about something that seems so little but also so fantastic that you really start believing in it.
Another way can be that you're just curious about what will happen when you go there. How the whole thing will look and what the healing medium will do to you. You might not be very excited and believing about it but you feel that something like that is worth experiencing.
And then you can be the one who are not spiritual at all just going also because of the curiosity about what they will do and what will happen even though you don't think anything is going to change after.
You get there and however your feeling is the curiosity drives you in to this experience.
If you are very excited and then get the book to sign your name and your problem, you really consider what you want to be cured inside your body. If you feel a pain or something that is instable in your body you write it. If you're very serious about this you consider your answer and don't do any mistakes. Then you only write one place in your body where you feel there has to be a change. If you can't find anywhere in your body with an illness you go deep and think about the past and then write down one organ or part of your body where you want to feel a difference.
You believe it and get the surgery and after the treatment you feel better. Why?
Not because of the surgery, but because of that you believed in the process.
This is what i think. You become what you believe. If you believe in a change that you are going to feel better... You will.
People feel different every day. One day you can have a bad headache and one day you can feel healthy as a celery plant. Every day is different depending on how your mood is. Maybe if it's raining you can feel very bad and you find places in your body that hurts, or it can be a beautiful weather and you will feel fantastic.
Off course if you really do have an injury in your body or a bad lever you can't change it in a day, but if you believe that you're going to be better you will if you live right and don't push your self down in to the ground when you feel bad.
I've heard of people having a very weak heart going to faith healers and then gotten rid of their heart disease after a year. After this just living on as any human beings with no problems at all. Things like that sounds unreel and a little bit weird, but if it happened it happened. I still don't believe that it was about the surgery. Maybe a small part has to do with it like the medium gave you some advices like: Don't eat cholesterol, Don't use tampons, listen to others more, don't swim when you feel uncomfortable or lower your voice.
These tips she gave us. The thing about cholesterol anyone could say. Even my mother. What you can take it as is that you might should worry about your diet and care about what you're eating. That's a good and simple advice. Just like Jesus with his clever and simple advices helped people and still does 2000 years later. Respect for that.
Don't use tampons. Same thing. A very simple and clever advice if it were from your mother when you're 13.
All of these advices: Very good advices to use further on in life. think about what you're eating, doing and saying.
Anyway. I think it was very interesting, but not good at all because the days after i just felt bad and my stomach hurt so that's that.
Talk to you soon.
Saturday 26 July 2008
Breaking news!
Yesterday I came back from something you'd either hate, love or just find interesting. The "Psychic surgery" up in the north of this country was in a little village/city with a three storage mall and almost nothing else.
We arrived to the Medium in the simple little chapel on Friday around noon. 20 people were sitting and watching the surgery up on the podium in the front of the chapel. What you could see on this place was first of all before we went inside a family with kids and grandparents sitting around like totally normal people(not that i can define normal but...), a front gate in an alley with a gate door that was in the height of up to my chest. And when we went inside the chapel.. Back to the podium. The "surgery" was already going on when we got in so we just sat our selves down to wait for our turn. Anyway, you could see the podium, on the left side below the stairs up to the podium you could see a sign with rules like: If you have had a spiritual injection during 24 hours do not: Shower or bath, sponge only. No sexual activity for the next 36 days. No cold or sour food, No chicken and beef or any kind of red meat.
Ha ha... I took a shower the morning after.
Up on the podium you could see a desk where the patient was laying to get "healed" surrounded by three people healing the patient. There was one woman who was the actual medium for St. Luke and she was the one doing the main work in the surgery.
The first thing we did when we came in to the chapel was to write our name and something that was bad with our body in a big book. I didn't know what to write because i didn't really know what is wrong with my body so i just wrote: Benjamin Lindh Medin, Back, Stomach.
Then we waited for our turn to get up and get our treatment and finally after one hour it was our turn!
We got up together as a group me, my dad, Jessie and Vijaya and I was first up. The medium lady told me to lay down on the desk and take off my shirt. Then she started moving around her hands on my stomach with oil and tissues. I didn't really understand anything in the beginning because she didn't say anything, but after a while of massaging my stomach she said: Your lever. I went: what about it? And then she didn't answer with more than that it wasn't clean, so she had to clean it. After a period of five minutes she said that i should eat less cholesterol and then she said i was done. I was about to leave, but than another guy sat me down and i got a massage for a couple of minutes then i was able to leave the podium.
I'm not going to tell you what they told all the others because that would take to much time to read, but what i can say is that the medium lady said kind of the same things to them and some more personal. Another thing about what happened to all of us was that they pulled out red colored tissues from the stomach and said it was blood.
During the same day after this we were all a little confused about what just happened, we went to see The Dark Night in this big mall in the middle of nowhere called Magic Mall. It really was a magic mall! The movie was great but what happened during the movie was magic. Three times during this action filled film the whole theater turned black. All the lights went off...
The reason was that it had been raining and storming a lot in this little village/city so that there had been a power cut. You could actually hear the rain more than the movie at some points. Very interesting!
Where we stayed was not important, but it was a very nice simple place in a beautiful tropic area. Very good fish in the restaurant too.
Well well.. The day after we all went back to the faith healer one last time just for a quick in and out thing before we left. We turned out waiting for two hours for our turn. When i got up on that desk for the second time she started the same way as the first day, but this time she didn't do that much. After two minutes she said: Oh interesting! You're clean.
Then she worked a little bit more on the stomach and around the ribcage and then i was done.
Three and a half hour ride to a middle of nowhere somewhere in the Philippines getting a massage for nothing than tip money in a very simple chapel. I'm not going to leave any comments.
You can please leave your comments and tell me what you would think about the whole thing.
Nice experience huh ;) ?
After this whole thing I was very tired and just wanted to sleep when i got home but what to say.. Back to work for two more weeks. This is Tuesday. Please let me here stay where i lay without moving further away on the day.
We arrived to the Medium in the simple little chapel on Friday around noon. 20 people were sitting and watching the surgery up on the podium in the front of the chapel. What you could see on this place was first of all before we went inside a family with kids and grandparents sitting around like totally normal people(not that i can define normal but...), a front gate in an alley with a gate door that was in the height of up to my chest. And when we went inside the chapel.. Back to the podium. The "surgery" was already going on when we got in so we just sat our selves down to wait for our turn. Anyway, you could see the podium, on the left side below the stairs up to the podium you could see a sign with rules like: If you have had a spiritual injection during 24 hours do not: Shower or bath, sponge only. No sexual activity for the next 36 days. No cold or sour food, No chicken and beef or any kind of red meat.
Ha ha... I took a shower the morning after.
Up on the podium you could see a desk where the patient was laying to get "healed" surrounded by three people healing the patient. There was one woman who was the actual medium for St. Luke and she was the one doing the main work in the surgery.
The first thing we did when we came in to the chapel was to write our name and something that was bad with our body in a big book. I didn't know what to write because i didn't really know what is wrong with my body so i just wrote: Benjamin Lindh Medin, Back, Stomach.
Then we waited for our turn to get up and get our treatment and finally after one hour it was our turn!
We got up together as a group me, my dad, Jessie and Vijaya and I was first up. The medium lady told me to lay down on the desk and take off my shirt. Then she started moving around her hands on my stomach with oil and tissues. I didn't really understand anything in the beginning because she didn't say anything, but after a while of massaging my stomach she said: Your lever. I went: what about it? And then she didn't answer with more than that it wasn't clean, so she had to clean it. After a period of five minutes she said that i should eat less cholesterol and then she said i was done. I was about to leave, but than another guy sat me down and i got a massage for a couple of minutes then i was able to leave the podium.
I'm not going to tell you what they told all the others because that would take to much time to read, but what i can say is that the medium lady said kind of the same things to them and some more personal. Another thing about what happened to all of us was that they pulled out red colored tissues from the stomach and said it was blood.
During the same day after this we were all a little confused about what just happened, we went to see The Dark Night in this big mall in the middle of nowhere called Magic Mall. It really was a magic mall! The movie was great but what happened during the movie was magic. Three times during this action filled film the whole theater turned black. All the lights went off...
The reason was that it had been raining and storming a lot in this little village/city so that there had been a power cut. You could actually hear the rain more than the movie at some points. Very interesting!
Where we stayed was not important, but it was a very nice simple place in a beautiful tropic area. Very good fish in the restaurant too.
Well well.. The day after we all went back to the faith healer one last time just for a quick in and out thing before we left. We turned out waiting for two hours for our turn. When i got up on that desk for the second time she started the same way as the first day, but this time she didn't do that much. After two minutes she said: Oh interesting! You're clean.
Then she worked a little bit more on the stomach and around the ribcage and then i was done.
Three and a half hour ride to a middle of nowhere somewhere in the Philippines getting a massage for nothing than tip money in a very simple chapel. I'm not going to leave any comments.
You can please leave your comments and tell me what you would think about the whole thing.
Nice experience huh ;) ?
After this whole thing I was very tired and just wanted to sleep when i got home but what to say.. Back to work for two more weeks. This is Tuesday. Please let me here stay where i lay without moving further away on the day.
Thursday 24 July 2008
heeey
after a couple of days with non writing i'm back to life in this blog world 15 minutes before i start teaching a class. The late few days i've been working very hard, being very tired, but also very happy because i've got fun people to hang out with. I went to a japanese a couple of days ago and i don't know if i've said this but all restaurants are very cheap to eat in even if they are very nice. I had some very good sushi in this japanese restaurant right and the price was kind of 5 times as cheap compared to the places i've been in Sweden. So to spoil myself i'm now gonna go to this restaurant many times and live as a king in the Sushiland as much as i can. In this way i can be tired of sushi when i get home and then maybe wait a year until next year when i might get here and eat more that time and so on and so on.
Sushi in Sweden is nothing compared to here. Wonder how it is in Japan right?
In the weekend i'm going with my father, his future wife and Vidyaya to a "Psychic surgery" up somewhere here in the Philippines. It sounds very creepy because i heard it's extremely Christian and that they do all these weird things on you. anyway gotta go !
Sushi in Sweden is nothing compared to here. Wonder how it is in Japan right?
In the weekend i'm going with my father, his future wife and Vidyaya to a "Psychic surgery" up somewhere here in the Philippines. It sounds very creepy because i heard it's extremely Christian and that they do all these weird things on you. anyway gotta go !
Friday 18 July 2008
first weekend
Yesterday it was friday. yesterday it was awesome. First part of the day wasn't so smashing. I tought some classes and ate some food. In the evening there was something called Trance Dance at Pulse yoga.
I was teaching a hot flow class before, so i missed thirty minutes of the trance dance class. Since i was teaching a hot class before i came in to the class a little hot, right? When I got in to the Trance Dance class everybody was laying down doing different stretches in a circle. I layed down beside the teacher who was with no coments very beautiful and we all started moving more and more to the music. Closing our eyes at all time and just listening to her voice telling us what to do and how to move. And then after a while the music started to play faster, we started to move more and then with no directions of how to move, we all started dancing and moving around on the floor to the music and flowing to the beat. Sweating more than i've ever done in my whole life i think and it was wonderful. All about heating up the room together in the beginning and then just dancing away with our feelings and energies floating around in the room. The whole feeling of not really caring about how we moved and just about how our instincs, feelings and hearts took us through the room not caring about how it looked. It was exactly like yoga, we did a lot of movements for about one and halfhour and finished with Savasana which is when you lay down and rest after a practice.
It was an awesome experience. The only thing that i always have a problem with was all the spiritual talk about yoga that a lot of teachers use. To talk in a specific way with a very smooth voice and talking about the gods and the letting go and surrendering and all that. All the talk like: Now let us all feel grateful about the reason of what took us to this world, this place in this time and so on and so on... hope you get my meaning.
The rest of the night was very good when me and some friends from the studio went out to a dance club dancing of course the most time of the night through and we had a good time!
A good thing about this event in the night was that a Dj aka Dj Elmo came. He is a member of the Tiesto group and is awesome. So that was a great thing. I can now say that i've seen Elmo live which is quite cool.
At least i think so!
I'm tired of all the rain in this city and i hope it's going to clear up soon.
I was teaching a hot flow class before, so i missed thirty minutes of the trance dance class. Since i was teaching a hot class before i came in to the class a little hot, right? When I got in to the Trance Dance class everybody was laying down doing different stretches in a circle. I layed down beside the teacher who was with no coments very beautiful and we all started moving more and more to the music. Closing our eyes at all time and just listening to her voice telling us what to do and how to move. And then after a while the music started to play faster, we started to move more and then with no directions of how to move, we all started dancing and moving around on the floor to the music and flowing to the beat. Sweating more than i've ever done in my whole life i think and it was wonderful. All about heating up the room together in the beginning and then just dancing away with our feelings and energies floating around in the room. The whole feeling of not really caring about how we moved and just about how our instincs, feelings and hearts took us through the room not caring about how it looked. It was exactly like yoga, we did a lot of movements for about one and halfhour and finished with Savasana which is when you lay down and rest after a practice.
It was an awesome experience. The only thing that i always have a problem with was all the spiritual talk about yoga that a lot of teachers use. To talk in a specific way with a very smooth voice and talking about the gods and the letting go and surrendering and all that. All the talk like: Now let us all feel grateful about the reason of what took us to this world, this place in this time and so on and so on... hope you get my meaning.
The rest of the night was very good when me and some friends from the studio went out to a dance club dancing of course the most time of the night through and we had a good time!
A good thing about this event in the night was that a Dj aka Dj Elmo came. He is a member of the Tiesto group and is awesome. So that was a great thing. I can now say that i've seen Elmo live which is quite cool.
At least i think so!
I'm tired of all the rain in this city and i hope it's going to clear up soon.
Monday 14 July 2008
First full week
The first morning was soo hot during practice and i could hardly breathe but it went well. This teacher training course started on sunday and there were so twentytwo people in the room. I thought it was steaming when we were ten people in that room but now when there was twice as many it was of course twice as hot and you sweated twice as much. If there is one country with the most biting bugs in the world it is this one. I see ants biting me, flies and all different kinds of bugs kreeping up on me all the time and it's itching everywhere all the time. Do i sound cheeky? It's only bugs, but it is enoying having to scratch yourself all the time even when you practice. I'm feeling more and more home sick every day. It doesn't mean that i don't like it here but i just want to go home.
Practicing has been to hard in a room with twentytwo people so now i'm only practicing with one old friend from India who is also teaching here at the same studio as me. The reason is simple. I'm lazy and get to sleep more now when we're practicing at 9 everyday. I could get up at 5 as i did every day until this tuesday but that wouldn't be as comfortable and nice as working three classes per day, finishing at 9.15 getting picked up by a private driver and then come home ten minutes after. Have a snack, chill out a little bit, go to bed and wake up randomly around 7 Oclock and sit here for a while just chilling and then leave around this time 8.30am and get in perfect time for practice at the yoga studio.
Give yourself a cheese breeze
Practicing has been to hard in a room with twentytwo people so now i'm only practicing with one old friend from India who is also teaching here at the same studio as me. The reason is simple. I'm lazy and get to sleep more now when we're practicing at 9 everyday. I could get up at 5 as i did every day until this tuesday but that wouldn't be as comfortable and nice as working three classes per day, finishing at 9.15 getting picked up by a private driver and then come home ten minutes after. Have a snack, chill out a little bit, go to bed and wake up randomly around 7 Oclock and sit here for a while just chilling and then leave around this time 8.30am and get in perfect time for practice at the yoga studio.
Give yourself a cheese breeze
Saturday 12 July 2008
Okay, fresh information
now, i've been here for about two days and it's good :) I've found out information like i'm not teaching a workshop but a whole lot of classes every day here in this city. I'm going to teach around four classes per day and when it's about yoga, it feels like a lot.
Yesterday I taught two classes and it wasn't that bad. It was good and I think I will be alright. I've been feeling very nervous about teaching something i've never taught before but it went quite okay! I don't think I should complain. It will take time to become a good teacher in yoga but it was fun and I think I will have a good time here in this city.
Dancing. Haha Joelle who is the owner of this house and who is the woman that I am staying at asked me yesterday if I wanted to do anything during my spare time here in this city. I couldn't think of anything else than danceclasses so that was what we decided for me to do. We called a dancestudio and checked what classes they had and what kind of levels. Since I brought a par of tapshoes wich i borrowed from school i thought that I could take a few lessons. I got do the dancestudio today and guess what. The class that I wanted to take was a tap class. A good teacher was there and the studio was very good too. Nice wodden floor so that you could hear the sounds of the taps well and then there were about five girls in the age of ten who attended the class. When I came in everybody including the teacher was hardly taller than up to my chest. I felt like had fallen in to a class for kids and that I was the big giant in the group looking down on everybody.
Anyway it just felt strange practicing with kids 8 to 12 years younger than me so I took the class and left even when I was supposed to take a contemporary class after. They were as young as on the tapclass. And no it's nothing wrong with their skills. I guess they're good i don't know but I just wanted to be able to practice with a diciplined group with people maybe three years younger than me and older. I might seem silly but i just wasn't able to practice together with kids that age if i'm taking the class myself. Hope you guys understand.
I'm tired and hungry hope i'll get the energy to write more here soon and knowing what to write because i don't
Yesterday I taught two classes and it wasn't that bad. It was good and I think I will be alright. I've been feeling very nervous about teaching something i've never taught before but it went quite okay! I don't think I should complain. It will take time to become a good teacher in yoga but it was fun and I think I will have a good time here in this city.
Dancing. Haha Joelle who is the owner of this house and who is the woman that I am staying at asked me yesterday if I wanted to do anything during my spare time here in this city. I couldn't think of anything else than danceclasses so that was what we decided for me to do. We called a dancestudio and checked what classes they had and what kind of levels. Since I brought a par of tapshoes wich i borrowed from school i thought that I could take a few lessons. I got do the dancestudio today and guess what. The class that I wanted to take was a tap class. A good teacher was there and the studio was very good too. Nice wodden floor so that you could hear the sounds of the taps well and then there were about five girls in the age of ten who attended the class. When I came in everybody including the teacher was hardly taller than up to my chest. I felt like had fallen in to a class for kids and that I was the big giant in the group looking down on everybody.
Anyway it just felt strange practicing with kids 8 to 12 years younger than me so I took the class and left even when I was supposed to take a contemporary class after. They were as young as on the tapclass. And no it's nothing wrong with their skills. I guess they're good i don't know but I just wanted to be able to practice with a diciplined group with people maybe three years younger than me and older. I might seem silly but i just wasn't able to practice together with kids that age if i'm taking the class myself. Hope you guys understand.
I'm tired and hungry hope i'll get the energy to write more here soon and knowing what to write because i don't
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